Decreasing of blog enthusiastic momentum

As you all are realizing, I am decreasing my blog enthusiasm not on purpose, but it is just I write alot in my diary. I can always consider this blog and my diaries as a part of my life here on Earth.

Here's what I can do: I can instead put a weekly summary of what I write in my diary. I have lesser things to write unless, I get new ideas.
(By the way, I call them IIO's not Diary, but for the sake of others' understanding, I refer them to diary. IIO means "Internal Information Output". I am now into my 4th notebook.

For the meantime, I will just put some quotes from the past entries I have written in my diary:

"Humor is indeed a great thing. A fearful person can really be a comedian"- 11/19/09

"Adjusting from one thing to another is a change, but not an overnight change. It is more of a gradual change. Change involves risk. A risk to the unknown. We must have courage in order to face the pains of the unknown. Remember. no one will know the real person in you. Only God knows." - 11/21/09

"Ive witnessed the initial void of MDC in a Sunday sunlight. The silence, serenity and calmness were absolute until the arrival of the (30th National Quiz Bee) organizers this morning"- 11/22/09

"I know that the authentic self is the mature self waiting to be exposed to the world, to see.
This is the self who has been hiding for a very long time.
This is the self whom we see and even witness faith and change and trust.
This is the self where love meets our soul and grow into the form of unconditional love or agape.
This is the self where all hatred are dissolves and accepted.
This is the self where he knows his ways and limitations through the course of life.
This is the self where all evaluations with the self and others are eternally suspended in the values of non-maleficience and benevolence.
This is the self who admits his imperfections.
This is the self who knows that he knows nothing.
This is the self who promotes the love of peace and harmonious co-existence among his race mates.
This is the self who doesn't blame anyone or himself for any circumstances.
This is the self who have no regrets and (are) satisfied with everything in life.
This is the self who is less biased than others.
This is the self of true nature who affirms his existence as a human person and individual in this physical world.
This is the self who don't procrastinate or even give excuses.
(This is the self who accepts his innate uniqueness)

This is a creed of a changed and a well accepted self. Let nothing diminish this, unless they allow it. This is the authentic self who's free and is responsible for everything. Be him and you shall shine in enlightenment. Don't worry, just be happy." - 11/25/09

"Is there anyone out there who knows me and understands me well? A "True" friend [for me]* is a person who's willingly to accept and understand me as who I am. S/He is someone who I whole-heartedly trust and experience together the things we are meant to do. S/He makes me understand myself and others better, because s/he is a reflection of me. I can easily self-disclose to this someone without guilt or shame. We would suffer, laugh, enjoy and love and do lots of things together. I don't know who this person is."- 11/27/09

"I know I am free to do anything. It is just that I don't feel this privilege of freedom in my perceptions. Learned helplessness is still in my blood, I can't remove such disease from me"- 11/28/09

"To the stars through adversity, just seize the day [Ad astra per aspera, carpe diem!!!]"- 11/30/09

On 12/12/09, I have listed 23 characteristics of a "Best True Friend", but I figured out that this is so wrong that it is close to impossible for find someone like this. This is too conditional.

*This shows my perspective of what a True friend is.

Note: The words inside the parentheses are added today.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! (Maligayang Pasko at Manigong Bagong Taon!)

Take Care always and I apologize for the unintentional hiatus. :)

Some excerpts from my Diary/Journal

"Critical thinking sadly has become rare nowadays. Dependence affects our natural ability to think and to lead. No one shall be a follower but a leading-follower. Meaning, everyone should be a leader, but less as a follower. We become wise, critical thinkers if we have the autonomy to do so in the liberated world." - October 15, 2009

"I want the world to know, that I am not giving up hope even though they don't care. I know success is in the hands of the present for the future" - August 20, 2009

"Let rapport among relatives strengthen as the muscles of interaction activate the reality of love. It is the foundation where I see myself, that resilience in the Family's Future shall remain in good pace." - August 2, 2009

"I sometimes do not see the reason why do crab mentality exists in the heart of the Filipino Society. I get depressed also by the channeling of Negative Energy from other people."- July 31, 2009

"Conflicts are inevitable. Insecurities are the abodes of the evil-self. Submit yourself to the unknown. You shall be authentically worthy of your life that you've faced these conflicts as solvable challenges yet to be conquered."- August 29, 2009

"I am like a magnet, a disoriented magnet. I view the approachable as the unapproachable, but in reality, they are really approachable and kind and pleasing. A grave effect of stereotyping makes me bite hard for me to relax. This is not life, but it is the reality of things and situations." - August 28, 2009

"The complexity of human interactions is the great value of surprises. Live with it, not throw it to the wastelands. Treasure it as if it is your own, like a sunflower smiling to the sun all day long" - September 1, 2009

"The energy of motion, light, love and water is the energy of life."- September 16, 2009

"It is not for a child to adjust to the adult's preferences, but it is for the adult to adjust to the child's preferences to ensure symmetrical and balanced relationships for the sake of social and developmental circumstances and expression."- September 21, 2009

"The golden answer of your life is inside you. Contemplate, my friend because you will see what the common man cannot see. That's the optimism of life." - September 24, 2009

"There is something I have discovered. If I say good things, there will be less reactions. If I say bad (things), there will be a nation-wide outrage. What a phenomenon that happened in facebook!"- September 28, 2009

""Everyone wants to change the world, but no one wants to be the change they want to see in themselves". This is a very accurate and precise of today's reality people are facing. Anyone at this point would be asking, "What's the change for?" My answer is: "The change is for the greater good of the futuristic humanity"." - October 10, 2009

People, these are some of the messages I got from wisdom which is my subconsciousness. It is all up to you on how you should react to this. :)

A need to satisfy interpersonal connections and personality

Loneliness has been an emotional disease for a very long time. Aloneness, however is different, because it is a choice. I have been longing for a true friendship for a very long time and somehow, I keep on backing out for reasons like fear of judgement, criticism and rejection (Social Isolation). Those are the risks I am aware of self-disclosure. Others may be reaching out to me, but I guess I was rejecting their offers for reasons that my super-ego is my guardian image, who always would like me to be weak.

I feel very restricted at alot of things. Alot of people seemed to misunderstand the conditions people like me are facing. They have not empathy, but I don't blame them for not understanding, because I know it is very difficult to understand the people who are very different from us. The problem with me, is that I am not always willingly to legitimately suffer for the better, I am not taking risks. That's Neurosis defined by Carl Gustav Jung. It is autonomy and social connections I am aiming for. I really know now, why children hate to be controlled. Let not the children be spoiled to the point of no responsibility.

Love and Affection according to M. Scott Peck (A psychiatrist, a psychotherapist and a best-seller author of the "Road Less Travelled), is an effort to open yourself or extend yourself to others (Breaking down ego boundaries). Ego Boundaries are personality limits in ourselves. If we are to effortless break down ego boundaries, that love will always be temporary, because love is not a feeling itself. That's the myth. It is like a muscle willingly to push ourselves to the target of risk. Read the Road Less Travelled, you will really know alot. I am sorry, but I can't put everything here.

When I really have to self-disclose information (I mean the great truth of my being), I will break down and hope nothing will go bad. Optimists always aim for the better (Positive thinkers). Pessimists always aim for the worst (Negative thinkers). Pessimists always do the complaining and will not be really satisfied of what they have and what they are doing. Optimists is the direct opposite. They are happy even though something is missing. Me, being a pessimist always look for facts and knowledge (that are empirical evidences of psychopathology in my being) more about myself through different references and acknowledge those facts as part of me, but doesn't throw this away, I let it become like a parasite.

Whenever, I stay at school during vacant times, I let myself become desperate just by witnessing the process of making gold (Making friends). I have been comparing myself to others, which can make me inferior to others. This promotes jealosy. So, I should stop judging, criticizing, doubting my abilities and capabilities to do better. It is all in the mind some would say. If I see myself as a moron or an idiot, I would expect others to see me as the same, waiting to be bait of rejection.

I am sure some commenters to this note will be able to extrinsically motivate me by saying "Believe in yourself! Trust yourself! Let no other person bring you down, because it is you who let it happen..." I would appreciate that, but then, I will be more dependent on other people for giving me wise passages.

I have found myself to be insecure all the time. Mark Twain said "There are no securities in life. Only opportunities." So, optimists would rather look for opportunities. Let the opportunities not hinder the great development of man, because these are the grand doors to experience and experience is the greatest teacher to be a better person. Self-determination is actually a one-time thing, they aim for something great at 1st try, because they would believe that there wouldn't be a 2nd try.

As you can see, I have been debating with myself on what should happen. My sick-self will push me towards mental illness (Most possibly avoidant personality disorder), but my healthy-self will push me to change and to aim high to fulfill all of my potentials as a human being. That's basically the tug-of-war of personality.

Once we were told, that we should not talk to strangers. That mindset is already impacted in our minds. Parents were wrong. Friends were strangers before we meet them. This are one of the reasons why people are so shy and anxious to meet other people. I am a loveshy person myself. Our parents did not really specify what strangers are. Everything is generalized. I hope you are enlightened. The purpose of this post is not only to express my need to socialize, to be accept and to be loved but to help others who are in need as well.

I do have the knowledge but my problem is the application of the knowledge to my self-esteem. I know am not alone in this one. A true friend out there is an acceptor of beings. I may not be a friend to myself, but I may be able to befriend others. I accept the responsibility of the criticisms others say to me in this note. Thank You for your time and patience. I shall end this note with a friendship quote:

"It is easy to find fault with others, but it is not easy to live so that others will not see faults in us. We tend to criticize our friends for doing things that we could do not better."

Pasensya na lang sa mga nanag-nosebleed. Walang pag-asa ako kapag walang intidihan ng mga complex terms. I apologize. :(

Energy: The primoridal component of the universe.

" Let not your thoughts be the master of your being, but let your being be the master of your thoughts."

I shall start this post with this quote. This is authentic for the new age era. The Secret is both a video and a book which uncovers the LAW OF ATTRACTION as the SECRET.

They are basically saying to us that MAN is a magnet or a energy-transmitter which uses thinking as the medium. If you think positive, it will come. It is not the matter of "how" it will come, it is the matter of expecting that the things you would like will come.

According to the proponents of the Secret, Love is a feeling, which is caused by our thinking. Feeling is the subjective manifestations of thoughts as a feedback from the universe. We are all energy-composed. There is no such thing as non-energy. I suppose that some people would question me "What about the Absolute Zero point in the Kelvin temperature scale?" Well, it is difficult to say, because in classical physics, the lower the temperature, the more heat will be lost. Heat is a form of energy.

But in the quantum mechanical physics, Energy can be generated in atoms through the forces of motion. My answer to the absolute Zero question would be: "The evidence of energy in the intermolecular level is low, but energy in both the subatomic and atomic levels are high. As you can see around you, you see energy not matter.

Matter, substances, chemical compositions of things are just energy and that is the fact. We are connected to this universe which is the matrix of energy. Our minds, our spirits have no material compositions whatsoever, because they're taking the form of energy.

E=MC^2 is the famous formula proposed by Albert Einstein and now is proven a century later at 2005.

"It followed from the special theory of relativity that mass and energy are both but different manifestations of the same thing -- a somewhat unfamiliar conception for the average mind. Furthermore, the equation E is equal to m c-squared, in which energy is put equal to mass, multiplied by the square of the velocity of light, showed that very small amounts of mass may be converted into a very large amount of energy and vice versa. The mass and energy were in fact equivalent, according to the formula mentioned above. This was demonstrated by Cockcroft and Walton in 1932, experimentally." - Albert Einstein

So, therefore the emptiness of the universe is not empty at all. The nothingness is not nothing at all. So, from this proposition, we can possibly say that nothing or empty is something. That something is Energy, my friends.

From the 7 chakras of the body aligned in the Kundalini to the atomic fusion in the nuclear setting. From the intrinsic combustions of the stellar community to the Superstring theory.

Paranormal and enigmatic activities are energy. Spontaneous Human Combustion (SHC) is probable, but never witnessed. Motion is what the univese keeps on moving. Energy is the cause of everything and of motion. This is why, we classified energy into 2. Kinetic and Potential Energy.

I hypothesize that Potential Enegry does not really exist, because we keep on moving. Motion is relative, so it depends on the point of reference. Potential Energy only exists in the normal perspective excluding the bigger picture. So, the authentic energy is called Kinetic energy, while the inauthentic energy is called potential energy.

Different dimensions hold the same kind of energy in many different ways in the medium of vibrational contact and interpretation.

I end this post by saying "Be the vibes because you are the essential calories of the universe."

Return of the king of the Havens

I shall return once more and never to back out again unless it is necessary. My birthday returns once more on September 24 and the tragic memory of 9/11 will help us reminisce the terror of what the world saw in 2001.

As for politics, Benigno "Noynoy" Aquino III has decided to run for president despite the backing out of Manuel "Mar" Araneta Roxas few days ago. Politics is heating up and the battles of these politicians will never be significant as those of the past generations.



In this video, Mar Roxas officially announced his backout from the presidential race in Club Filipino located at Greenhills, San Juan.




http://www.jovefrancisco.com/?p=725 Here is the story behind the video of the fuming president.

All I can say is, that the president blew a fuse in the wrong time. Is this what journalistic professionalism really is? This incident proves the amateurness of these people. It is just like the Secret Service in the JFK Assasination in Dallas, Texas. Unprepared.

There is a time in our lives, where we don't even care of our leaders anymore. The president of the Republic of the Philippines, the successor of PGMA, will still be as insignificant as her, because Filipinos are never contented. More rallies, debates, Coup and Genuine Democracy (People Power) attempts.

Sad to say that Article II section 6 of the 1987 Constitution has been misinterpreted for a long time.

Sec. 6: The separation of Church and State shall be inviolable.

The church prefers to be antidisestablishmentarian (is a political philosophy that is opposed to the separation of church and state.)

But Antidisestablishmentarianism is a violation of that section of article 2 of the Philippine 1987 constitution which is the fundamental law of the land. I prefer to be Anti-antidisestablishmentarian.

CBCP (Catholic Bishops' Conference of the Philippines)is the contemporary form of the Spanish friars. I wonder if the Canon Law says something about this law on the separation.

As always, we, the Filipinos are self-destructing into something bad. Even with the Aquino surname on hand, we will still go down into the dungeon of kakistocracy. Imelda Marcos said that "The Philippines is rich due to the abundance of Gold, Oil and Deuterium. This makes "G.O.D."" That is one aspect of many.

Blame no one, The loss of national narcissism is the loss of genuine nationalism. God Bless the Philippines. Hopes will shine into the darkness of carnages.

The return from a 1-month undeniable hiatus

I would like to apologize for this unannounced hiatus for my computer at home is a victim of technological infections. As much as I like to fix it, but I have to fix myself for I am neurotic. You can say that again.

Anyways, here is the summary of what happened during the hiatus:

The whole month of July. I couldn't really access my computer, so I had to use the computer at school.

July 27, 2009- was the Last SONA of President Arroyo. Let me react that the laymen of the Philippines have no knowledge of the economics language and its application to politics. Also, she is actually using Argumentum ad Hominem as a logical fallacy to critics. Is this a president worthy to be honored with greatness or with intellectual trash? Gloria substantially declared that she will step down from the presidency in 2010, and that is clear, but what's not clear is what will her post-presidential plans be. Will she stay in politics? She has generated more speculations. Her De Jure presidency should be re-thinked by the Filipinos, that Juan dela cruz is a fool. Yes, in deed, because they themselves, installed the president. Perhaps we are now in a state of an democratic kakistocracy (Badly-maintained rule). She is clinging herself to the tower of greed.

August 1- 5, 2009- These are the days of mourning of the death of the late President Maria Corazon Sumulong Cojuangco Aquino (1933-2009). Alot of people called her an "Icon of Democracy" and also a saint. The common message from the common masses are "Salamat at Paalam" and "Thank you for restoring democracy in the republic." Clearly, It is a repetition of August 31, 1983 when her husband Ninoy, died.

I have founded a useful way to express myself and to gain external information which I established on July 29, 2009. I called it EIO (External Information Output) and IIO (Internal Information Output). Others call IIO as Diary.

Once again, my apologies to all.

Jackson Dream and Social Nomadism, School updates

This morning I had a dream of Michael Jackson on the way to an ambulance from his home. I remember seeing an nasal oxygen cannula. A health professional in the ambulance placed in a oxygen mask without removing the cannula. Perhaps, Michael had difficulty of breathing and he was awake.

I guess, MJ himself tried to communciate with me. Not sure, but let's hope the symbolic interpretation is not bad. Maybe, this actually happened during his passing.

SOCIAL NOMADISM

Social Nomadism- is an interpersonal experience of a person where he/she has no permanent companion or a friend in a particular social group or in general.

I consider myself a social nomad because, at school, socialization is better than before. I socialize now, but to a heightened point of interest. The social group I am in, is the psychology group. In short, I am with 1 sub-group which is 1 class for a limited time and another for a limited time. This is a life of an recent shifter and a resulting irregular. I guess, I am not the only social nomad, because Jedi tends to be another one (As I perceive it).

I realized that I have alot of unreasonable expectations that drive people away.

SCHOOL UPDATES

Now, I have 2 new teachers replaced the old ones. These are the teachers for Art Appreciation and Ethics. The new Art App teacher is so jivey, so cool, so friendly, so light and so approchable. I really do like him and I fancy his smile LOL. He is just perfect for the class. He has this format of EXCITING discussion first then some activities. He overused the words "Particular" and "Work of Art". I even pictured him in my mind as an painter with a hat, a canvass, and a palette facing the camera smiling. LOL. So charming.

The other new teacher replaced the Elvisoid (Elvis-like) teacher. I haven't met her but the chairperson of the MDC-CAS-Humanities Department said that she is a product of the Catholic University of Louvane in Beligium. She has 2 MA's. That university produces the "BEST MINDS IN PHILOSOPHY". As she was having her teaching demo yesterday, passerbys were mesmerized about this teacher. I was so excited that I envisioned her as a "Enlightener of the spirit." Hopefully, she is not very strict. :)

The teacher in Educational Psychology is so fantasizing that he even considered himself as an comedian. He talks like Ogie Diaz and his catchphrase is "CONGRATULATIONS! to the highest level (in a sarcastic manner)". He believes that an educator should adjust to the likeliness of the students. He is so advanced that he uses LCD + Laptop in all discussions. In short, Powerpoint presentations, for quizzes and lessons. He is so calm, so charming and so interesting and approachable. Besides, he is the only male teacher in the Psych Dept.

Now, lastly, the teacher in economics is my only problem. Why is that? It is only now, that I realize that this teacher has great teaching skills and a bit higher level than ours, but she is frustrated whenever the students don't understand the lesson and therefore she blames the student for not understanding. Common sense is less common than before. She really pre-consciously classically condition her students. For this, she doesn't recognize improvement because she doesn't care about the student's evaluation. She doesn't recognize the student diversity really well. This my 2nd time being with her as my teacher. The first one was a year ago with the nursing students. My realization of such problematic blaming just came to me this week. She also does not realize that she is promoting the fear of failure. My perception of this teacher may not be the same of my classmates. So, I am not blaming her at all, uniqueness is really a human property that can't be destroyed.

The students and the teachers must harmoniously co-exist in a complementary fashion in order to function orderly as a class. Everyone is different and those differences should be recognized. The students and the teachers should adapt to each other, otherwise, the teacher will invoke several conditionings to the students.

Last week, I have joined a RSO (Recognized Student Organization) called "Peer Facilitators Organization" under the management of the Guidance Office which is under the DSA (Directorate of Student Affairs) (Formerly called as OSA or the Office of Student Affairs) of the school.

Peer Facilitators are just guides and the enlighteners of the problematic or psychologically deficient students. "I want to understand and help myself simultaneously with the same human act to others as a matter of the acceptance of personal responsibility with the application of psychological principles and theories learned in the main course of BS Psychology."

It will be a fruitful year, hopefully. :)

Today, I have learned something new about the Philippine History. Originally, the Philippines was a colony of Spain through the viceroyalty of Mexico. This was the pre-galleon trade period.

Adios MJ, the product of a motown legend. The memorial was so touching. Let Ethics rule the world as it should be. GBU.

Relationship observations

My YM status said:

"After chatting with people who are in a relationship, I want to immerse myself
into a romantic experimentation very soon."

All these Boyfriend and Girlfriend stuff are just experiments we are not very aware of. Adolescents are too young to go into this. Look at the cases of teenage pregnancy out there. That's a major disadvantage and can lead to a serious consequence of accepting another burden in one's life. A bigger responsibility in which we are not prepared of. OR it can also lead to the ethical dilemma of abortion.

Those people who are EMO or suffering depression and won't accept that depression as a fact of life SHOULD BE considered as cowards and weaklings, because they are too weak to combat that depression by suicide. Come on, That is not Altruistic Eros anymore, that is Suicidal Eros.

A Filipina who lives in New Zealand told me she had 11 relationships.

Now, I wrote this status in my YM. I actually had changed my mind.

"Alright! Romantic experimentation shouldn't be forced. Make it natural as a
tree growing to the sun, not the sun crashing to the trees. I will just let the
time come to me even though I see alot of people in such experiences."

I wouldn't go for the unnatural. Life is not eros alone. Life is more than that. Life is the miracle of universal harmony within the interconnections of all things.

We forgetting to live without the appreciation of oneself is more than an unexamined life. It is a loss of self-dignity and value. Suicide is UNETHICAL!

A pre-mature romantic relationship was absurd in the early 20th century and before. This absurdity gradually reversed itself to moral acceptability.

I am a product of teenage pregnancy myself. The common sense is no longer common. Without agape, this romantic experimentation can go forever. You see those actors with the cases of annullment and divorce. There is no happiness in there.

Let's face the fact that change is constant and it is indeed the universal derivative of life. A friend of mine said this:

"I guess, that's how life goes... as we grow up, we change.. the way we talk,
the way we dress, our perceptions in life, maturity, our values, and a lot
more... even your BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND.. they're changing in so many ways..
sometimes, it's hard to accept the fact the he/she really changed. sometimes,
you're happy because he/she changed."

We cannot change others unless they allow that change to happen. We can only change ourselves for the better and accept whatever comes to our possession.

So, I shall wait for it to come to me even though jealousy takes the best of me. My last note is from a Yahoogroup I joined with. They will take credit for this:

"If you love someone because you think that he or she is really gorgeous...
Then it's not love..
it's - Infatuation. ..

If you love someone
because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you
shouldn't...
Then it's not love..
it's - Compromise.. .

If you
love someone because you think that you cannot live with out his touch....
Then it's not love..
it's - Lust...

If you love someone because
you have been kissed by him...
Then it's not love..
it's - Inferiority
Complex...

If you love someone because you cannot leave him thinking
that it would hurt his feelings..
Then it's not love..
it's - Charity...

If you love someone because you share every thing with him...
Then
it's not love..
it's - Friendship.. .

But if you feel the pain of
the other person more than him even when he is stable
And you cry for him..
that's - LOVE... "

Reflect, Self-enlighten and Refresh. :)

Sickly Day

Yesterday was a sickly day full of colds, coughs and anything alike, but don't worry, I wasn't H1N1 infected.

I had several intervals of resting and using my computer and all. I felt as if my nose is eternally flowing out mucous.

Now, I am eventually getting waaay much better than yesterday and the day before. I didn't go to church due to the worries of sickness spreading.

I am spending my time with my computer this weekend. Mainly on the net. I am recently addicted with the Facebook quizzes and chatting with some new people.

I will make sure to get in the college by tom, otherwise, they will throw me back home.

I stumbled upon something new. I am now curious about the relationship of geographical distance and the power of love. This may be useful in the future.

Somehow, with all the dialogues I had with alot people regarding love and relationships, I guess, I am wishing now to be in one. I want to experience romantic experimentation. I observed it through the experience of others, but not myself.

Even virtual romantic relationship will do. I actually feel weak with the absence of my new friends.

Whatever comes, I shall accept it as part of my responsibility in the balance of life and death.

I am living in a world of philosophical confusion where no unity exists.

A Death of another Grand Musical Archetype: Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson (1958-2009) was a man of talent and a man of abuse. But let's give him credit for the invention of Pop as everyone says, He is the KING OF POP.

He died on the age of 50 in his Los Angeles home with cardiac arrest. He best-selling album is "Thriller". For remembrance to the great king, let his legacy go on forever.




GOD BLESS YOU! He has joined with Elvis Presley, the King of Rock and other dead Genre-legends.