Let's just call the Queen of the Great Blue Rose: Queen Rosalinda.
She currently dominates my diaries as I began writing about her last month. I gained great interest over the past month. I saw enlightenment and grace in her being. Queen Rosalinda is an introvert with innumerable great qualities. Her insights are very sensible, even though they are questionable, but these insights are mainly her opinions, which I thought are convictions. Queen Rosalinda is so contemplative and somehow mysterious to all that she chose to be private most of the time. She claims that the blue rose is the positivity in her life despite the negativity on this world. She is very interesting to know and understand.
The more I got interested in her, the more I tend to visualize what kind of friendship would be in store for us, the stronger my intentions for the friendship to develop. Divine providence even made me realize the worth of this friendship. The friendship of truth and genuinity. Note that 99% happened virtually and it is still happening. I have envisioned that this could be my first great friendship with the enormity of Noah's Flood. I assured her that I will be sympathetic with her in all aspects and I know that she will realize that this friendship will mean everything to me. This doesn't mean that I am replacing others, it just means that I would like to experience something I was always deprived to do due to insecurities, anxieties and fears. It is a milestone for a socially inept person like me.
What I like about Rosalinda is everything. She can impress people by her means of clear expression. She can impress people with her speech-like messages. I also call her "The Epitome of Encouragement." She has the ability to encourage people, she has changed my perceptions of what a public school is like. She has been a leader for a lot of times.
Her wisdom can never be as controversial as Pandora's Box, because she lives by something fragile which I can call "The Royal Vessel". Yes, The royal vessel is a vessel which has a size of a Genie's Lamp on Disney's Aladdin. The outside is limited but the inside is limitless since it can never be full. The contents float as objects of knowledge, wisdom and experience.
Despite all of these things happening, she is currently on a state of self-conflict. She is on a state of emptiness, and of melancholy. She is so natural when she types. I am trying to understand her but because of her nature of introversion, she chose to contemplate on her existence which leads her to act mysteriously. Even though these things happen, I am very proud and very glad beyond reasonable doubt to be a true friend, which is my very first. She is my inspiration. I acknowledge the genuine worth of the friendship. :) I even have thought that my friendship with Rosalinda helped me get closer to God through her and through this.
Let's just call the girl from the neighborhood of love: Laura.
Laura, is a girl who came from the neighborhood of love because she just came out from the dark side of love. She's wonderful to be with and she sees books as a collection of adventures and journeys. She happened to be an alumna of my former alma mater. We became friends not only because of this, we became friends because of the bond of trust we developed.
I also wrote about Laura in my diaries, but not as much as the Queen's. Laura is such a wonderful person as she can be very sensitive with certain things. She is as delicate as a pyramid made of game cards. She can endure cartoon graphic violence very well, because they are just cartoons not real actors. She is artistic not only with her musicality but also with her anime art. With music, she plays the violin. Perhaps, medium level violin. :)
She is very much approachable and She is so kind that she really trusts me. She is on the way to be a very strong girl, psychologically speaking. Why? She has endured so much that she has conquered the emotional pain at its greatest extent which is only known to the nature of her experience.
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So, in general these are the kind of girls, I can learn to trust, to rely on, to acknowledge, to support, to help, to understand, to know, to confide, to sympathize, to communicate, to be sincere with, to be honest with, to respect, to adore, to cathect, to accept, to be humble with, and to be comfortable with.
I can be with them both in their worst and in their best of attitudes. I will promise to myself that I will try my best to be a great friend to them. This is something I never have done before and I am willingly to break my insecurities, calm my anxieties.
This is MY social renaissance after staying on a state of learned helplessness for a very very long time. I had been on the course of fears and anxieties which prevented me from being someone who I dreamed to be. I chose them because I would like to experience new things I never experienced before. This can be the beginning of a new life. The start of a social support group. I have imagined myself to hug them as it can melt my heart to the softness of a marshmallow. They are the rare treasures I can cherish for a lifetime, because they can make a difference in my life as I can make a difference in their life. I am willingly to be my truest self and I really mean it. They are too rare to let go.
There are people who are irreplaceable because they can mark your heart with their uniqueness. There are people who will never abandon you no matter what happens. Friendship is truly something priceless. Now, I realize the essence of friendship through different online articles. I am thankful. I hope they realize the same thing. :) Thank you very much.
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I, in the other hand, am willing to transform into a better individual. I will watch inspirational videos, read online articles, listen to great music. I have been analyzing myself a lot, trying to discover who I am as a person.
As a BS Psychology major, I am committed to escape the perception of paranoid imprisonment to the state of self-discipline, freedom, wisdom, responsibility and self-acceptance. It will take a lot of work but I am sure, with their help, the help of other people and with the help of the guidance counselor, I will come out with confidence and honor. My being, my dignity and my identity will show me that I have a life worth living even though I always have had an inexperienced past. I transcend to the best of my being and shine like a diamond. :D
Be compassionate. Be a concerner. Be a friend to all.
"What you say about others is a reflection of who you are."
- Kyle Victor Jose
- Kyle Victor Jose
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