Decreasing of blog enthusiastic momentum

As you all are realizing, I am decreasing my blog enthusiasm not on purpose, but it is just I write alot in my diary. I can always consider this blog and my diaries as a part of my life here on Earth.

Here's what I can do: I can instead put a weekly summary of what I write in my diary. I have lesser things to write unless, I get new ideas.
(By the way, I call them IIO's not Diary, but for the sake of others' understanding, I refer them to diary. IIO means "Internal Information Output". I am now into my 4th notebook.

For the meantime, I will just put some quotes from the past entries I have written in my diary:

"Humor is indeed a great thing. A fearful person can really be a comedian"- 11/19/09

"Adjusting from one thing to another is a change, but not an overnight change. It is more of a gradual change. Change involves risk. A risk to the unknown. We must have courage in order to face the pains of the unknown. Remember. no one will know the real person in you. Only God knows." - 11/21/09

"Ive witnessed the initial void of MDC in a Sunday sunlight. The silence, serenity and calmness were absolute until the arrival of the (30th National Quiz Bee) organizers this morning"- 11/22/09

"I know that the authentic self is the mature self waiting to be exposed to the world, to see.
This is the self who has been hiding for a very long time.
This is the self whom we see and even witness faith and change and trust.
This is the self where love meets our soul and grow into the form of unconditional love or agape.
This is the self where all hatred are dissolves and accepted.
This is the self where he knows his ways and limitations through the course of life.
This is the self where all evaluations with the self and others are eternally suspended in the values of non-maleficience and benevolence.
This is the self who admits his imperfections.
This is the self who knows that he knows nothing.
This is the self who promotes the love of peace and harmonious co-existence among his race mates.
This is the self who doesn't blame anyone or himself for any circumstances.
This is the self who have no regrets and (are) satisfied with everything in life.
This is the self who is less biased than others.
This is the self of true nature who affirms his existence as a human person and individual in this physical world.
This is the self who don't procrastinate or even give excuses.
(This is the self who accepts his innate uniqueness)

This is a creed of a changed and a well accepted self. Let nothing diminish this, unless they allow it. This is the authentic self who's free and is responsible for everything. Be him and you shall shine in enlightenment. Don't worry, just be happy." - 11/25/09

"Is there anyone out there who knows me and understands me well? A "True" friend [for me]* is a person who's willingly to accept and understand me as who I am. S/He is someone who I whole-heartedly trust and experience together the things we are meant to do. S/He makes me understand myself and others better, because s/he is a reflection of me. I can easily self-disclose to this someone without guilt or shame. We would suffer, laugh, enjoy and love and do lots of things together. I don't know who this person is."- 11/27/09

"I know I am free to do anything. It is just that I don't feel this privilege of freedom in my perceptions. Learned helplessness is still in my blood, I can't remove such disease from me"- 11/28/09

"To the stars through adversity, just seize the day [Ad astra per aspera, carpe diem!!!]"- 11/30/09

On 12/12/09, I have listed 23 characteristics of a "Best True Friend", but I figured out that this is so wrong that it is close to impossible for find someone like this. This is too conditional.

*This shows my perspective of what a True friend is.

Note: The words inside the parentheses are added today.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! (Maligayang Pasko at Manigong Bagong Taon!)

Take Care always and I apologize for the unintentional hiatus. :)

Some excerpts from my Diary/Journal

"Critical thinking sadly has become rare nowadays. Dependence affects our natural ability to think and to lead. No one shall be a follower but a leading-follower. Meaning, everyone should be a leader, but less as a follower. We become wise, critical thinkers if we have the autonomy to do so in the liberated world." - October 15, 2009

"I want the world to know, that I am not giving up hope even though they don't care. I know success is in the hands of the present for the future" - August 20, 2009

"Let rapport among relatives strengthen as the muscles of interaction activate the reality of love. It is the foundation where I see myself, that resilience in the Family's Future shall remain in good pace." - August 2, 2009

"I sometimes do not see the reason why do crab mentality exists in the heart of the Filipino Society. I get depressed also by the channeling of Negative Energy from other people."- July 31, 2009

"Conflicts are inevitable. Insecurities are the abodes of the evil-self. Submit yourself to the unknown. You shall be authentically worthy of your life that you've faced these conflicts as solvable challenges yet to be conquered."- August 29, 2009

"I am like a magnet, a disoriented magnet. I view the approachable as the unapproachable, but in reality, they are really approachable and kind and pleasing. A grave effect of stereotyping makes me bite hard for me to relax. This is not life, but it is the reality of things and situations." - August 28, 2009

"The complexity of human interactions is the great value of surprises. Live with it, not throw it to the wastelands. Treasure it as if it is your own, like a sunflower smiling to the sun all day long" - September 1, 2009

"The energy of motion, light, love and water is the energy of life."- September 16, 2009

"It is not for a child to adjust to the adult's preferences, but it is for the adult to adjust to the child's preferences to ensure symmetrical and balanced relationships for the sake of social and developmental circumstances and expression."- September 21, 2009

"The golden answer of your life is inside you. Contemplate, my friend because you will see what the common man cannot see. That's the optimism of life." - September 24, 2009

"There is something I have discovered. If I say good things, there will be less reactions. If I say bad (things), there will be a nation-wide outrage. What a phenomenon that happened in facebook!"- September 28, 2009

""Everyone wants to change the world, but no one wants to be the change they want to see in themselves". This is a very accurate and precise of today's reality people are facing. Anyone at this point would be asking, "What's the change for?" My answer is: "The change is for the greater good of the futuristic humanity"." - October 10, 2009

People, these are some of the messages I got from wisdom which is my subconsciousness. It is all up to you on how you should react to this. :)

A need to satisfy interpersonal connections and personality

Loneliness has been an emotional disease for a very long time. Aloneness, however is different, because it is a choice. I have been longing for a true friendship for a very long time and somehow, I keep on backing out for reasons like fear of judgement, criticism and rejection (Social Isolation). Those are the risks I am aware of self-disclosure. Others may be reaching out to me, but I guess I was rejecting their offers for reasons that my super-ego is my guardian image, who always would like me to be weak.

I feel very restricted at alot of things. Alot of people seemed to misunderstand the conditions people like me are facing. They have not empathy, but I don't blame them for not understanding, because I know it is very difficult to understand the people who are very different from us. The problem with me, is that I am not always willingly to legitimately suffer for the better, I am not taking risks. That's Neurosis defined by Carl Gustav Jung. It is autonomy and social connections I am aiming for. I really know now, why children hate to be controlled. Let not the children be spoiled to the point of no responsibility.

Love and Affection according to M. Scott Peck (A psychiatrist, a psychotherapist and a best-seller author of the "Road Less Travelled), is an effort to open yourself or extend yourself to others (Breaking down ego boundaries). Ego Boundaries are personality limits in ourselves. If we are to effortless break down ego boundaries, that love will always be temporary, because love is not a feeling itself. That's the myth. It is like a muscle willingly to push ourselves to the target of risk. Read the Road Less Travelled, you will really know alot. I am sorry, but I can't put everything here.

When I really have to self-disclose information (I mean the great truth of my being), I will break down and hope nothing will go bad. Optimists always aim for the better (Positive thinkers). Pessimists always aim for the worst (Negative thinkers). Pessimists always do the complaining and will not be really satisfied of what they have and what they are doing. Optimists is the direct opposite. They are happy even though something is missing. Me, being a pessimist always look for facts and knowledge (that are empirical evidences of psychopathology in my being) more about myself through different references and acknowledge those facts as part of me, but doesn't throw this away, I let it become like a parasite.

Whenever, I stay at school during vacant times, I let myself become desperate just by witnessing the process of making gold (Making friends). I have been comparing myself to others, which can make me inferior to others. This promotes jealosy. So, I should stop judging, criticizing, doubting my abilities and capabilities to do better. It is all in the mind some would say. If I see myself as a moron or an idiot, I would expect others to see me as the same, waiting to be bait of rejection.

I am sure some commenters to this note will be able to extrinsically motivate me by saying "Believe in yourself! Trust yourself! Let no other person bring you down, because it is you who let it happen..." I would appreciate that, but then, I will be more dependent on other people for giving me wise passages.

I have found myself to be insecure all the time. Mark Twain said "There are no securities in life. Only opportunities." So, optimists would rather look for opportunities. Let the opportunities not hinder the great development of man, because these are the grand doors to experience and experience is the greatest teacher to be a better person. Self-determination is actually a one-time thing, they aim for something great at 1st try, because they would believe that there wouldn't be a 2nd try.

As you can see, I have been debating with myself on what should happen. My sick-self will push me towards mental illness (Most possibly avoidant personality disorder), but my healthy-self will push me to change and to aim high to fulfill all of my potentials as a human being. That's basically the tug-of-war of personality.

Once we were told, that we should not talk to strangers. That mindset is already impacted in our minds. Parents were wrong. Friends were strangers before we meet them. This are one of the reasons why people are so shy and anxious to meet other people. I am a loveshy person myself. Our parents did not really specify what strangers are. Everything is generalized. I hope you are enlightened. The purpose of this post is not only to express my need to socialize, to be accept and to be loved but to help others who are in need as well.

I do have the knowledge but my problem is the application of the knowledge to my self-esteem. I know am not alone in this one. A true friend out there is an acceptor of beings. I may not be a friend to myself, but I may be able to befriend others. I accept the responsibility of the criticisms others say to me in this note. Thank You for your time and patience. I shall end this note with a friendship quote:

"It is easy to find fault with others, but it is not easy to live so that others will not see faults in us. We tend to criticize our friends for doing things that we could do not better."

Pasensya na lang sa mga nanag-nosebleed. Walang pag-asa ako kapag walang intidihan ng mga complex terms. I apologize. :(

Energy: The primoridal component of the universe.

" Let not your thoughts be the master of your being, but let your being be the master of your thoughts."

I shall start this post with this quote. This is authentic for the new age era. The Secret is both a video and a book which uncovers the LAW OF ATTRACTION as the SECRET.

They are basically saying to us that MAN is a magnet or a energy-transmitter which uses thinking as the medium. If you think positive, it will come. It is not the matter of "how" it will come, it is the matter of expecting that the things you would like will come.

According to the proponents of the Secret, Love is a feeling, which is caused by our thinking. Feeling is the subjective manifestations of thoughts as a feedback from the universe. We are all energy-composed. There is no such thing as non-energy. I suppose that some people would question me "What about the Absolute Zero point in the Kelvin temperature scale?" Well, it is difficult to say, because in classical physics, the lower the temperature, the more heat will be lost. Heat is a form of energy.

But in the quantum mechanical physics, Energy can be generated in atoms through the forces of motion. My answer to the absolute Zero question would be: "The evidence of energy in the intermolecular level is low, but energy in both the subatomic and atomic levels are high. As you can see around you, you see energy not matter.

Matter, substances, chemical compositions of things are just energy and that is the fact. We are connected to this universe which is the matrix of energy. Our minds, our spirits have no material compositions whatsoever, because they're taking the form of energy.

E=MC^2 is the famous formula proposed by Albert Einstein and now is proven a century later at 2005.

"It followed from the special theory of relativity that mass and energy are both but different manifestations of the same thing -- a somewhat unfamiliar conception for the average mind. Furthermore, the equation E is equal to m c-squared, in which energy is put equal to mass, multiplied by the square of the velocity of light, showed that very small amounts of mass may be converted into a very large amount of energy and vice versa. The mass and energy were in fact equivalent, according to the formula mentioned above. This was demonstrated by Cockcroft and Walton in 1932, experimentally." - Albert Einstein

So, therefore the emptiness of the universe is not empty at all. The nothingness is not nothing at all. So, from this proposition, we can possibly say that nothing or empty is something. That something is Energy, my friends.

From the 7 chakras of the body aligned in the Kundalini to the atomic fusion in the nuclear setting. From the intrinsic combustions of the stellar community to the Superstring theory.

Paranormal and enigmatic activities are energy. Spontaneous Human Combustion (SHC) is probable, but never witnessed. Motion is what the univese keeps on moving. Energy is the cause of everything and of motion. This is why, we classified energy into 2. Kinetic and Potential Energy.

I hypothesize that Potential Enegry does not really exist, because we keep on moving. Motion is relative, so it depends on the point of reference. Potential Energy only exists in the normal perspective excluding the bigger picture. So, the authentic energy is called Kinetic energy, while the inauthentic energy is called potential energy.

Different dimensions hold the same kind of energy in many different ways in the medium of vibrational contact and interpretation.

I end this post by saying "Be the vibes because you are the essential calories of the universe."

Return of the king of the Havens

I shall return once more and never to back out again unless it is necessary. My birthday returns once more on September 24 and the tragic memory of 9/11 will help us reminisce the terror of what the world saw in 2001.

As for politics, Benigno "Noynoy" Aquino III has decided to run for president despite the backing out of Manuel "Mar" Araneta Roxas few days ago. Politics is heating up and the battles of these politicians will never be significant as those of the past generations.



In this video, Mar Roxas officially announced his backout from the presidential race in Club Filipino located at Greenhills, San Juan.




http://www.jovefrancisco.com/?p=725 Here is the story behind the video of the fuming president.

All I can say is, that the president blew a fuse in the wrong time. Is this what journalistic professionalism really is? This incident proves the amateurness of these people. It is just like the Secret Service in the JFK Assasination in Dallas, Texas. Unprepared.

There is a time in our lives, where we don't even care of our leaders anymore. The president of the Republic of the Philippines, the successor of PGMA, will still be as insignificant as her, because Filipinos are never contented. More rallies, debates, Coup and Genuine Democracy (People Power) attempts.

Sad to say that Article II section 6 of the 1987 Constitution has been misinterpreted for a long time.

Sec. 6: The separation of Church and State shall be inviolable.

The church prefers to be antidisestablishmentarian (is a political philosophy that is opposed to the separation of church and state.)

But Antidisestablishmentarianism is a violation of that section of article 2 of the Philippine 1987 constitution which is the fundamental law of the land. I prefer to be Anti-antidisestablishmentarian.

CBCP (Catholic Bishops' Conference of the Philippines)is the contemporary form of the Spanish friars. I wonder if the Canon Law says something about this law on the separation.

As always, we, the Filipinos are self-destructing into something bad. Even with the Aquino surname on hand, we will still go down into the dungeon of kakistocracy. Imelda Marcos said that "The Philippines is rich due to the abundance of Gold, Oil and Deuterium. This makes "G.O.D."" That is one aspect of many.

Blame no one, The loss of national narcissism is the loss of genuine nationalism. God Bless the Philippines. Hopes will shine into the darkness of carnages.

The return from a 1-month undeniable hiatus

I would like to apologize for this unannounced hiatus for my computer at home is a victim of technological infections. As much as I like to fix it, but I have to fix myself for I am neurotic. You can say that again.

Anyways, here is the summary of what happened during the hiatus:

The whole month of July. I couldn't really access my computer, so I had to use the computer at school.

July 27, 2009- was the Last SONA of President Arroyo. Let me react that the laymen of the Philippines have no knowledge of the economics language and its application to politics. Also, she is actually using Argumentum ad Hominem as a logical fallacy to critics. Is this a president worthy to be honored with greatness or with intellectual trash? Gloria substantially declared that she will step down from the presidency in 2010, and that is clear, but what's not clear is what will her post-presidential plans be. Will she stay in politics? She has generated more speculations. Her De Jure presidency should be re-thinked by the Filipinos, that Juan dela cruz is a fool. Yes, in deed, because they themselves, installed the president. Perhaps we are now in a state of an democratic kakistocracy (Badly-maintained rule). She is clinging herself to the tower of greed.

August 1- 5, 2009- These are the days of mourning of the death of the late President Maria Corazon Sumulong Cojuangco Aquino (1933-2009). Alot of people called her an "Icon of Democracy" and also a saint. The common message from the common masses are "Salamat at Paalam" and "Thank you for restoring democracy in the republic." Clearly, It is a repetition of August 31, 1983 when her husband Ninoy, died.

I have founded a useful way to express myself and to gain external information which I established on July 29, 2009. I called it EIO (External Information Output) and IIO (Internal Information Output). Others call IIO as Diary.

Once again, my apologies to all.

Jackson Dream and Social Nomadism, School updates

This morning I had a dream of Michael Jackson on the way to an ambulance from his home. I remember seeing an nasal oxygen cannula. A health professional in the ambulance placed in a oxygen mask without removing the cannula. Perhaps, Michael had difficulty of breathing and he was awake.

I guess, MJ himself tried to communciate with me. Not sure, but let's hope the symbolic interpretation is not bad. Maybe, this actually happened during his passing.

SOCIAL NOMADISM

Social Nomadism- is an interpersonal experience of a person where he/she has no permanent companion or a friend in a particular social group or in general.

I consider myself a social nomad because, at school, socialization is better than before. I socialize now, but to a heightened point of interest. The social group I am in, is the psychology group. In short, I am with 1 sub-group which is 1 class for a limited time and another for a limited time. This is a life of an recent shifter and a resulting irregular. I guess, I am not the only social nomad, because Jedi tends to be another one (As I perceive it).

I realized that I have alot of unreasonable expectations that drive people away.

SCHOOL UPDATES

Now, I have 2 new teachers replaced the old ones. These are the teachers for Art Appreciation and Ethics. The new Art App teacher is so jivey, so cool, so friendly, so light and so approchable. I really do like him and I fancy his smile LOL. He is just perfect for the class. He has this format of EXCITING discussion first then some activities. He overused the words "Particular" and "Work of Art". I even pictured him in my mind as an painter with a hat, a canvass, and a palette facing the camera smiling. LOL. So charming.

The other new teacher replaced the Elvisoid (Elvis-like) teacher. I haven't met her but the chairperson of the MDC-CAS-Humanities Department said that she is a product of the Catholic University of Louvane in Beligium. She has 2 MA's. That university produces the "BEST MINDS IN PHILOSOPHY". As she was having her teaching demo yesterday, passerbys were mesmerized about this teacher. I was so excited that I envisioned her as a "Enlightener of the spirit." Hopefully, she is not very strict. :)

The teacher in Educational Psychology is so fantasizing that he even considered himself as an comedian. He talks like Ogie Diaz and his catchphrase is "CONGRATULATIONS! to the highest level (in a sarcastic manner)". He believes that an educator should adjust to the likeliness of the students. He is so advanced that he uses LCD + Laptop in all discussions. In short, Powerpoint presentations, for quizzes and lessons. He is so calm, so charming and so interesting and approachable. Besides, he is the only male teacher in the Psych Dept.

Now, lastly, the teacher in economics is my only problem. Why is that? It is only now, that I realize that this teacher has great teaching skills and a bit higher level than ours, but she is frustrated whenever the students don't understand the lesson and therefore she blames the student for not understanding. Common sense is less common than before. She really pre-consciously classically condition her students. For this, she doesn't recognize improvement because she doesn't care about the student's evaluation. She doesn't recognize the student diversity really well. This my 2nd time being with her as my teacher. The first one was a year ago with the nursing students. My realization of such problematic blaming just came to me this week. She also does not realize that she is promoting the fear of failure. My perception of this teacher may not be the same of my classmates. So, I am not blaming her at all, uniqueness is really a human property that can't be destroyed.

The students and the teachers must harmoniously co-exist in a complementary fashion in order to function orderly as a class. Everyone is different and those differences should be recognized. The students and the teachers should adapt to each other, otherwise, the teacher will invoke several conditionings to the students.

Last week, I have joined a RSO (Recognized Student Organization) called "Peer Facilitators Organization" under the management of the Guidance Office which is under the DSA (Directorate of Student Affairs) (Formerly called as OSA or the Office of Student Affairs) of the school.

Peer Facilitators are just guides and the enlighteners of the problematic or psychologically deficient students. "I want to understand and help myself simultaneously with the same human act to others as a matter of the acceptance of personal responsibility with the application of psychological principles and theories learned in the main course of BS Psychology."

It will be a fruitful year, hopefully. :)

Today, I have learned something new about the Philippine History. Originally, the Philippines was a colony of Spain through the viceroyalty of Mexico. This was the pre-galleon trade period.

Adios MJ, the product of a motown legend. The memorial was so touching. Let Ethics rule the world as it should be. GBU.

Relationship observations

My YM status said:

"After chatting with people who are in a relationship, I want to immerse myself
into a romantic experimentation very soon."

All these Boyfriend and Girlfriend stuff are just experiments we are not very aware of. Adolescents are too young to go into this. Look at the cases of teenage pregnancy out there. That's a major disadvantage and can lead to a serious consequence of accepting another burden in one's life. A bigger responsibility in which we are not prepared of. OR it can also lead to the ethical dilemma of abortion.

Those people who are EMO or suffering depression and won't accept that depression as a fact of life SHOULD BE considered as cowards and weaklings, because they are too weak to combat that depression by suicide. Come on, That is not Altruistic Eros anymore, that is Suicidal Eros.

A Filipina who lives in New Zealand told me she had 11 relationships.

Now, I wrote this status in my YM. I actually had changed my mind.

"Alright! Romantic experimentation shouldn't be forced. Make it natural as a
tree growing to the sun, not the sun crashing to the trees. I will just let the
time come to me even though I see alot of people in such experiences."

I wouldn't go for the unnatural. Life is not eros alone. Life is more than that. Life is the miracle of universal harmony within the interconnections of all things.

We forgetting to live without the appreciation of oneself is more than an unexamined life. It is a loss of self-dignity and value. Suicide is UNETHICAL!

A pre-mature romantic relationship was absurd in the early 20th century and before. This absurdity gradually reversed itself to moral acceptability.

I am a product of teenage pregnancy myself. The common sense is no longer common. Without agape, this romantic experimentation can go forever. You see those actors with the cases of annullment and divorce. There is no happiness in there.

Let's face the fact that change is constant and it is indeed the universal derivative of life. A friend of mine said this:

"I guess, that's how life goes... as we grow up, we change.. the way we talk,
the way we dress, our perceptions in life, maturity, our values, and a lot
more... even your BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND.. they're changing in so many ways..
sometimes, it's hard to accept the fact the he/she really changed. sometimes,
you're happy because he/she changed."

We cannot change others unless they allow that change to happen. We can only change ourselves for the better and accept whatever comes to our possession.

So, I shall wait for it to come to me even though jealousy takes the best of me. My last note is from a Yahoogroup I joined with. They will take credit for this:

"If you love someone because you think that he or she is really gorgeous...
Then it's not love..
it's - Infatuation. ..

If you love someone
because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others think that you
shouldn't...
Then it's not love..
it's - Compromise.. .

If you
love someone because you think that you cannot live with out his touch....
Then it's not love..
it's - Lust...

If you love someone because
you have been kissed by him...
Then it's not love..
it's - Inferiority
Complex...

If you love someone because you cannot leave him thinking
that it would hurt his feelings..
Then it's not love..
it's - Charity...

If you love someone because you share every thing with him...
Then
it's not love..
it's - Friendship.. .

But if you feel the pain of
the other person more than him even when he is stable
And you cry for him..
that's - LOVE... "

Reflect, Self-enlighten and Refresh. :)

Sickly Day

Yesterday was a sickly day full of colds, coughs and anything alike, but don't worry, I wasn't H1N1 infected.

I had several intervals of resting and using my computer and all. I felt as if my nose is eternally flowing out mucous.

Now, I am eventually getting waaay much better than yesterday and the day before. I didn't go to church due to the worries of sickness spreading.

I am spending my time with my computer this weekend. Mainly on the net. I am recently addicted with the Facebook quizzes and chatting with some new people.

I will make sure to get in the college by tom, otherwise, they will throw me back home.

I stumbled upon something new. I am now curious about the relationship of geographical distance and the power of love. This may be useful in the future.

Somehow, with all the dialogues I had with alot people regarding love and relationships, I guess, I am wishing now to be in one. I want to experience romantic experimentation. I observed it through the experience of others, but not myself.

Even virtual romantic relationship will do. I actually feel weak with the absence of my new friends.

Whatever comes, I shall accept it as part of my responsibility in the balance of life and death.

I am living in a world of philosophical confusion where no unity exists.

A Death of another Grand Musical Archetype: Michael Jackson

Michael Jackson (1958-2009) was a man of talent and a man of abuse. But let's give him credit for the invention of Pop as everyone says, He is the KING OF POP.

He died on the age of 50 in his Los Angeles home with cardiac arrest. He best-selling album is "Thriller". For remembrance to the great king, let his legacy go on forever.




GOD BLESS YOU! He has joined with Elvis Presley, the King of Rock and other dead Genre-legends.

Waste of time, energy and money AND the glory of friendship

Yesterday, I had went to school only for ethics class but it turns out that the teacher had FORGOTTEN our class. Probably, he forgot to put our class in his sched.

Today, was my Art Appreciation class and again, it was moved to 7am to 8:30am slot. It is not the fault of students to miss these classes, we aren't informed. Being misinformed is better that being uninformed at all.

3 hours of Art Appreciation
1.5 hours of Economics (Class suspension on Friday due to general cleaning of the school)
1.5 hours of Ethics
were wasted this week.

I was with my 2 friends. 1 weirdo and 1 sweet lady. Their names are JE and Jedi. JE happened to have this mentality of KSP. It is very difficult to understand him. The strangest thing happened to me in front of a girl. I ordered 2-piece burger steak in Jollibee and he ate most of my meal using the same utensils I used and the straw for the large drink. I consider that a taboo, but I consider it as part of my fault, because I tolerated it. He just wants attention. It is the same guy whom I with during last Summer in Rizal Class. Gosh! Maybe, I should be a bit harsher on him next time. Most of the psychology students misunderstood him as my Nursing friends misunderstood me. Somehow, he can create a comedic scenario in school. Like trying to influence me that a girl somewhere out there likes me or something. JE considers himself as a relationship pragmatist. Pragmatism is practicality of things.

He is so proud to have a mental disorder, that he tells everyone. Somehow people misjudge other people by the attitude and judge them with their heart. Why can't we accept him for whohe is? We cannot accept him for who he is if we don't accept ourselves for who we are. That's the deficit of self-confidence.

Well, at least he has his own group of friends. :) That's what matters.

Now, enough of the weirdo. I will not say he has no manners but I can say that he can also take material things in front of you. He got my Nito ring.

THE GLORY OF FRIENDSHIP

Now, Jedi (Pronounced as Je-Deeh) is one of my true friends I see trust and loyalty in. I can sense that greatful innocence in her. Even an introvert like her knows what friendship really is. She is that type who rather wants to be alone then have hundreds of friends by her side.

I finally can experience the truth of friendship because all my life, loneliness has dominated me. I am crying right now for this righteous decision to be friends with someone for real. I rather have 5 to 8 friends than 50 or so. I was wishing and waiting for these moments to come and yet they have arrived.

Another friend I mentioned about is a girl named Celine. I mentioned about her in my other post on the Self-image reflection on other people.

Through my understanding of body language, I can admit that these 2 ladies really do accept me for who I really am. Friendship is composed with LOYALTY and TRUST plus the essentials of ALTRUISM and RESILIENCE.

"It is difficult to win a friend in a year, it is easy to offend one in an hour."

Jedi is a lady who is quiet in the beginning since she has to adjust to the new environment, and yet I think she will be able to be confident to know the Psych people.

Not only with these ladies but I can be concerned with other people well. Even when they are down, I can comfort with what efforts I have.

Helping yourself is also helping others, Personal responsibility is that you are responsible for what ever you do, say, hear, see, taste, think in your whole entire life. Even it affects other people.

Let me conclude with this:

"If a person is understood, accepted and respected, he will grow as a person. But understanding is deeper than knowledge. There are many people who know us, but very few who understand us. Understanding is more of the heart than of the mind."

The few people whom I consider as understanding are some of the psych students, as I see it now. But surely, it can be expanded to the whole course, because this friendship thingy is actually a lesson on Social Psychology. :)

It's very worthy to be with them, even in the verge of a pandemic, weather disruptions and other calamities. We stay STRONG TOGETHER AS ONE! Thank you.

Discussion Recording Method

I would like to promote a new method of educational listening. Something additional.

The Discussion Recording Method is a method which we use recorders to record on what the teacher is saying. Every intricate detail will be included clearly but it depends on what recorder you are using. In some ways, Recording is a great way to praise the lessons well. Everything will be left in the recorders.

A great example are the physics classes of Professor Leonard Susskind of Standford University in Youtube. That is a very high-tech recording. However, we will still need ballpens and papers, though. This method doesn't face-out ballpens or papers.

I wish educators can understand what I am trying to imply here. Thank You.

Pandora

PANDORA
By: Kyle Victor Jose

Pandora! Why did you open this box?
The box which leads to famine.
To the death of all.
To the destruction of all things.
To the disgrace of humanity.

Live long and embrace the currents.
Push away hatred and see the lights.
Jump into paradise and suffer no more.
Hell is on Earth and deal with the consequences.
I see a candlelight of hope rising to the atmosphere.

Oh! Pandora, why did you open this box?
Life before this, was happiness.
Life right now, is Earthly damnation.
Life after this, will be inhumane barbarianism.
Don't drown in the sea of depression.

Don't look!, People, Don't look!
Catastrophes dominate that box.
Chaos is the source of that box.
Enigmatic phenomena is against that box.
Evil is the end of that box.

Never forget History took its place.
Shalln't forgotten forever,
In the couragous hearts of men
And the passionate hearts of women.

The Sword of life
Destroys the boundaries of inhumanesss
And restore the manifestation of nature
PANDORA! Close that BOX!

Die with faith!
Die with dignity!
Die with justice!
Die with morality!
Die with conscience!
Die for the best cause!
Die in the most graceful way!

Death of Neda Agha-Soltan

I am absolutely disgusted and outraged when I saw the graphic videos of her death. The Iranian revolutionary forces killed her and she only went out for a silent protest, because her vote wasn't counted.




She is reportedly to die on the hands of her father, but actually, it is confirmed that it was her music teacher. She is known to be the angel of Iran. Oh! Neda, Where ever you are, The truth will always be hidden with this kind of people around. Don't worry.

I see no reason that peaceful activism is a cause for recklessness. I swear that the Iranian hypocrisy and arrogance will always be the same treating their people like the victims of the European Goths. Should I say, that the Iranian Government was, is and will never be the Government of Allah but the Government of uncivilized barbarians. Islamic extremists are Anti-Koran, Anti-Allah and Anti-Islamic, therefore, they can be considered as Pseudomuslims.

That soul is the symbol of collective power against injustice. We can never find inner peace in this environment of war.

Extension of the Havens

smartteaser.tumblr.com - this is my 2nd existing blog named "Extension of the Havens."

This will be more of a multimedia blog for me. It is different because that is Tumblr not Blogger. Anyways, Pls. visit here also. TY.

Weirdness of MDC

Today, I experienced that the MDC administrators are trying to create an intense scenario of panicking, by putting on useless face masks. I know that H1N1 is just right on the corner but you see, the students are less responsible of taking care of themselves (that includes me).

Some students are happy for a suspension but they have no idea what consequences would cost their time, their money and their education.

http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/breakingnews/nation/view/20090615-210649/Face-masks-pose-health-risk-too----expert

"She said masks could trap dirt that could be harmful to humans. She noted that even medical practitioners would sanitize their hands before handling the masks and putting them on and would dispose of the masks after use.
"But sometimes, people would wear it all day, put it in their pockets and then use it again," she said. "What if it [mask] already has virus?""

They are making things worse and want to let the visitors know that there are cases of such inside the school. I dare not want to see the school name in the news. There is no reason to panic at all. Self-quarantine at home is the best place.

This is a community effort. "The fault of one is the fault of all."

Commonalities

I have a virtual twin named Verlie whom I share 30+ characteristics with. Today, I met someone who is my classmate in 2 classes which are for the 2nd year students. I share 4 similar characteristics with her. Quickly, I am beginning to know her. A start of a new friendship. Also, in the same class, a student recently shifted from nursing in the same school happened to be my classmate in 3 of my 4 classes. I too want to know her more by making her more comfortable with the new environment.

We all have self-images. Here is an excerpt on self-images from one of the simpliest psychology sites in the web:

"To create the mental symbol we use to represent each person we consider to be very similar to ourselves, we begin with our self-symbol and then modify it to create a unique symbol for each of our close friends. For each acquaintance that is more distant from our own self image, we modify the symbol we have for them more from our self-symbol. This is illustrated on the left where our self is in the center, our closest friends each have individual symbols very much like our own, and our more distant acquaintances have similar, but increasingly different symbols. This is represented here by the differences in the color of the more distant symbols. For strangers, or people we do not want to be associated with, we may not begin with our self-symbol, but instead use the symbol for someone else we also distance ourselves from. The result is that the symbols for close friends are very similar to our own, and the symbols for people we do not identify with are quite different."

Differences of Acquaintance, close friend and intimate friend

Acquaintance

"As we get to know more about an acquaintance we develop an increasingly complete and complex mental symbol for that person. However, there is a limit to how well we ever know the other person. There are limits to how much time we will spend together and there are various boundaries limiting what we will ask, what we will tell, and what we are willing to learn about each other. Because these boundaries limit the information exchange, the information we gather is incomplete and the symbol we are able to create for the acquaintance is necessarily incomplete. Because the symbol is incomplete it remains significantly different from your self-symbol."

Close Friendship

"We know more about our close friends than we do about acquaintances. The amount of time we spend together, the number and nature of interactions and common experiences we share, the interest we have in learning more about each other, and our willingness to share more information all help us create a more complete symbol for our close friends."

Intimate relationship

"Intimacy takes this information sharing to the next level. During an intimate relationship we feel safe enough to expose and discuss our vulnerabilities and secrets. This additional information allows us to create a more complete symbol for an intimate partner. Also, because of the completeness of the symbol and also because the people we choose to become intimate with typically share many of our characteristics, the symbol we create becomes very similar to our self-symbol. This illustrated in the figure by the significant overlap of the two symbols. We feel empathy for people we become intimate with. "

Source: http://www.emotionalcompetency.com/self.htm

In short, the more commonalities 2 people have, the more close they get and the more they know and understand each other making themselves like twins. That's the advantage of knowing people like you. But the only disadvantage is that, you are becoming less unique superficially but the uniquness of a personality lies in the essence of a personality. You get to know alot with each other that you share many common characteristics that you tend to ignore the facets of the other person's problems unless they recognize it themselves.

If you have seen "Tell me who your friends are and I will tell you what you are". This is true since, your friends are other-person reflections of who you are and vice versa.


So, let the mirrors rise as intimacy grows! :)

Educational Psychology, Ethics and Economics subjects

Today, after reading the Self-confidence book, the information kinda sinks into my subconsciousness. I am not sure if this behavior is temporary though, but I didn't feel nervous anymore today. Well, anyways, I finally felt glorified to get close and know some Psych students for starters. It really seems that I ain't the only student who transfered from nursing. There is 1 I know of. She is shy in the beginning and she will hopefully be able to get along with others soon.

Educational Psychology is my 1st major stepping stone into my psychology course. It is an experience of academic appraisal and involvement.

Learning is a relatively permanent change in behavior caused by past experiences for the sake of future applications.

I will be able to cope with their teaching strategies. Who said I can't? Right?

With all I care, the new teachers I am experiencing with, this now, are all gentlemen and they are all great gentlemen with dignified experiences. The Ed Psych teacher is a Clinical Psychologist, Ethics and Art App teachers are philosophers and my other teacher is the only lady whom I've experienced with when I was in BSN-II-03 1st sem.

Ethics is the study of human morality. The teacher is a Elvis Presley fashion guy. He sounds foreign. Thank GOD that he is a Platonic-Aristotelian philosopher. Hail to the GREEKS!!!!

Economics is the proper allocation and efficient use of available resources for the maximum satisfaction of human wants.

The teacher in this subject is quite strict but I got used to her already. She is teaching the Social Sciences subjects. She taught Politics, Governance and Constitution last year.

These teachers and subjects, including Art App can create a meaningful and significant appreciation in this 1st semester.

I've felt the comfortability of adapting with other people today. The BS Psych students are amazingly different. This intrisic motivational enthusiasm will push me up to whatever offers me to do.

Remember this: Friends and Psychologists are different. When a person has a problem, he consults his friend. His friend is biased and may have the exactly the same problem. Things WILL get worse because a friend gives "Advice". The truth hurts and the friend does not tell the truth therefore it is a misguided, biased and unjust opinion. It is a spoonfeeding phenomenon. We will never learn how to solve our own problems from an advice, unless we look into our authentic self.

When the same person consults a psychologist, the psychologist has professional background and experience on this. A psychologist is just and balanced in opinion. They are the "professional guides of problematic people". They ENLIGHTEN by bringing the lost-minded person back into the correct road he is heading. Enlighten by inspiring and influencing others is the best road of enlightenment, because no one can force you to do something you hate or you want. You control yourself not others controlling you.

I have learned the basics of this lesson from my Ed. Psych teacher but I have expanded on the rest, through my wisdom.

Self-help references

I have bought 2 wonderful self-help books that will help me understand myself in today's world better.

1) How to be Self-Confident
2) How to Simplify your Love

I am reading the Self-confident book now. I am actually half-way into the book and it really discusses about shyness in a detailed and a simple way. I will tell you more when I am done with it.

Well, Tom. is Father's day. I will spend more time with my dad (especially during Jeremy's therapy). It is time to not go fictious but stay in the reality not surrealism. GODSPEED and Stay simple.

The love of country, the hatred of countrymen

Earlier, my dad and I were conversing about the depression that the Philippines will never go to the state of economic resurrection in the 2nd world and 1st world country districts.

He adores the country as the state but will never adore its countrymen. I kept on agreeing with him on this issue. He wants to reside in Canada and be a naturalized Canadian. I even joked on the Philippines in Dante's Inferno. Even in the 10 circle of hell, Beyond Lucifer, which is unimaginable.

But somehow, how can we be enlightened if we grow apathetically as a Filipino? He just gave me a motivation to be a dissident of the Philippines. We can never be enlightened if we do not know and understand the undeniable circumstantial quintessence of agape in the archipelagic iota of Filipino misanthropy.

Still, I am proud to be a Filipino by culture and history only. The rest is a shame of darkness. He said that "Africa and others have better chances to evolve than the Philippines." In the degree of the impossible re-direction of such, I have to disagree that there is a candlelight of hope in the "needle-haystack" situation.

Revocation or the abandonment of citizenship means the breaking of the sword of hope. It gets worse if everyone abandons their citizenship, because "Population" is an element of the state. Without the people, there is no state. So, there will be 80 million displaced Filipinos, over populating the rest of the world.

I must say that negligence, hypocrisy, corruption, arrogance and the negativities exercised in the behavior of the Filipinos are learnt behaviors. Everything is possible.

Actually, the population is a reflection of the state. Let's look it like this: Philippines is the Person and the People are the organs, collectively.

An abandonment of citizenship for the sake of depression is equivalent to suicide. This is Nationalistic Suicide.

If the People abandon their citizenship, the Philippines will get sicker and sicker and eventually die as a state. This is in collective context.

If every country does this, where will we go? You, see? This is the climax of Negative thinking. Will we also give up our life? Now, that is a different story.

Think about it, Negative thinking of one's state is directly contradictory to universal enlightenment. This is the gap of agape, we must fill in. Thank YOU.

IRANIAN ELECTION CHAOS!

First comes H1N1, second comes North Korea, third comes Con-ass and finally fourth comes Iran.


Iran, Iran, Iran. The place of Ancient Persians. I honestly see the horrid disgrace in the suffrage. So, unethical to see such. Mahmoud Ahmedinajad and his opponent and the supports are rambling like ants searching for somekind of radical activism.

Riots, rallies all over Tehran could mean something deadly for the Iranians. If I were an Iranian right now, I would do the same as others. I would be a Justice Advocate. I supporter of Human Rights.

Re-election is the best option to calm down such people. Nevertheless, I do not really care about this since it is an internal affair of the Iranians. I would care only if this mayhem escalates into the international level.

School Affairs

Yesterday was a great day, but I have noticed a grand change of schedule without prior notice that prompt me to add 2 new subjects and miss a class last Monday.

The new subjects are Economics and Educational Psychology (Advanced Major).

Even though Educational Psychology has pre-requisites, the Psych dept. coordinator offered me to enroll this to test if I am capable of it (I am excited to experience Psychology for the 1st time.)

Now, I have 4 subjects, 12 units and 5 days per week this semester.


My first class was about Art Appreciation with the 3rd year students. I am impressed on the teacher from Negros.

He is am interested with the teacher. He revealed what trivias are made in art. I am very excited to tackle the 3 fields of art (Music, Dance, Theater/Cinema). He was a member of the Ateneo Swimming team not too long ago. He is teaching Philosophy of man, Logic and Theology.
He revealed how much top-rating celebrities earn just by doing nothing.

I no longer relied on first impressions because it creates a fusion of biases.

Speaking of 3rd year students, almost all of them are girls. Now, I am very curious to know and understand them. Socialization in the oasis of education.

Nevertheless, I will be spending my classes with the 2nd year students also. At least 4 is better than 2 or 3. :) CHEERS!

The Horror of North Korea and the preparation for School

Today, North Korea itself has definitely and finally told the world that

"North Korea "is completely within the range of U.S. nuclear attack and the Korean peninsula is becoming an area where the chances of a nuclear war are the highest in the world," it said."

Source: http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090614/ap_on_re_as/as_koreas_nuclear

The Korean war technically is still on going. The very same Korean war a long time ago. I knew long ago that we would go into this pathway. I explained this pathway on my post dated April 8, 2009 - http://epistemus.blogspot.com/2009/04/us-sanctions-north-korea-for-un.html

The questions asked should be:
1) What are the motivations of NK on pursuing nuclear development?
2) What are the reasons why NK go on with nuclear development?
3) Why would NK defy the UN?
4) Why wouldn't NK blame themselves for their actions?
5) What are the intentions of that nuclear development?
6) Why would NK want war?

The best policy to follow is the diplomatic policy in dealing with other states. However, if NK continues to be defiant against the rest of the world, there will have to be a emergency meeting in the UN. This is ultimately all power-play. NK just wants power, and has a desire of international conquest. I can consider that NK is the most-biased and the most-closed minded state in the world.

Think of every state in the world as people. Let's say Mr. NK is defending his actions against the other people for some problems. NK is saying "If you get closer to me, I will destroy you all." Mr. US is being so alarmed and he is saying "Whoa! Calm down there, We will still remain against you unless you surrender your forces." NK- "I will never surrender, I will continue with my Nuclear programs." Mr. China, Mr. Russia has started to go against NK saying "Boy! This guy must be nuts." Mr. South Korea (SK) and Mr. Japan are saying "HELP! We wouldn't not want a fight. Darn NK! You have to re-think yourself". All of them turned to UN except NK for help. UN has a decision against NK as it warns NK for his activities. UN in this case is like the police. But NK has nuclear weapon. The ending stays open until there is action with the community of states.

So, that is the scenario we are facing now.

Enough of NK. Let's go to School affairs.

Few weeks ago I enrolled for just 2 subjects this semester: (Ethics and Art Appreciation). 3 hours for 2 days (Tuesday and Thursday) which is 6 hours a week in the morning alone. So, to use my time wisely, I have decided to go into extra-curricular activities. My load this year is imbalanced because this is a light load of subjects with the total of 6 units. I think 1 unit = 1 hour.
If I will be having a load of 6 subjects next sem, I will be having 18 units. How unequal is that? The Justice lady may brake her Libra already. LOL

Now, I am into a different pathway, I will no longer mind my nursing acquaintances unless there is a reason for such. I am accepting the rockiness of the road I will be facing.

I will make myself suitable for this new-classmate environment. This is a new period for me. I am already predicting who my teachers will be. LOL

Now, I am kinda considering myself as a Agnostic Catholic. Let Carpe Diem dominate my time. I will try to establish a discipline of strict time management, but the problem is I am a fellow procrastinator and a subconscious advocate of ningas cogon. What the HELL! It is easier said than done.

Randomized expressionisms

Right now, I am not feeling too well. If I have a webcam with a built-in mic, I would make a Video Blog instead. It is more natural than typing. Youtube, wherever you are, I will make my videos. A desire of individual expressionism.

Last night, I suddenly realized that my asthma has returned and I found out that my recent diarrhea are the adverse effects of me taking Amoxcillin against my cough. I had plans to go back to Sucat but now, I am not because I realized that I may get sicker and possibly get that virus in me.

Now, my cousins will be going to Los Angeles this Tuesday. Paternal cousins consisting the Choi's. I will type my message for them tom.

I have finally met someone virtually who has a similar self-image as mine. We share 21 common characteristics and yet there is still more to come. I never experienced this virtual intimacy before. Her name is Verlie and I am glad that she is one of them.

I have been spending my time with my Compie who is my MGF (Mechanical Girlfriend) which is my computer. Sometimes I really do get frustrated at it because it freezes, it loses data because of some unsaved text. Automatic restart isn't good. I love my MGF but it doesn't like me back. I don't know why.

Recently, I have alot of favorites in my youtube account. My youtube account is Kythos. I am a subscriber of alot of youtubers. Somehow, I got myself into a admiring compliment mood for some users. I tend to get flirtatious with them. I am not a sociophobe but a sociophile. My lack of personal friendship with others has been diverted to the so-call World Wide Web through Compie.

The hotness of the Manileño spirit has pulled my energy away from alot of motivations in this world. I am lost in a certain fantasy called change. Change is an eternal process or constancy. A deviation of distance in this world.

I may not be like me tom. We shall never know. We are neurologically unpredictable. Ciao!

Hail to the Philippine Independence and DIE H1N1

Yesterday, June 12, 2009 was the 111th year Anniversary of the declaration of Philippine Independence from Hispanic colonization.

111 years ago, Gen. Emilo Aguinaldo y Famy declared independence on the 2nd floor window of his house in Kawit, Cavite. No, he didn't declare it in his balcony, since there wasn't any balcony then. I would owe my allegiance to this nation for its honorable history and culture.













Viva Compadres! Things would be different if we weren't colonized by Spain or the US. That Philippines would be very far from this Philippines.

As far as everyone is concerned H1N1 is now a Pandemic as declared by WHO. Welcome to the great Influenza Pandemia everyone.

MABUHAY!!!!

HR 1109: The Thrust of Philippine Political Immaturity and other issues

HR 1109 is a resolution of the House of Representatives calling for Constituent Assembly (Con-Ass) without any senatorial intervention.

The government is basically have a desire to fluctuate between presidential and parliamentary forms of government. Charter Change (Cha-Cha)- is amending the constitution.

The reason why the opposition ain't for cha-cha these days because there are alot of suspicions that they don't trust the administration no more. Like, extension of the term of the incumbent officials and the possibility of no elections (Which the Comelec (Commission on Elections) affirmed that there WILL BE elections).

I mean, look at this! Is this what you call Philippine Republicanism?

It is an outrage to see the government going against the Filipino's freewill as a people. I guess, we are amongst the most politically immature nations in the world, which is a shame. Yes. Politically IMMATURE! Why? Because those hypocritical legislators and administrators always focus on competition and on the concept of administration and opposition but never as 1 single state. Let me add that the people are unaware that they voted for someone whom they hate. WHAT THE HECK! Vote for someone whom they hate in the future.

I Present to you House Resolution 1109:

House Resolution No. 1109

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We are in the precursor of a possible coup 'etat or a people power. Even Students demonstrate their voice in UP Diliman. The Makati rally stood together as one but would-be infected by H1N1 due to the gathering of crowds.

After all, the Philippines never did learn her lesson from the US during the American Occupation on governance. What is a DEMOCRACY?

DEMOCRACY- A government in which the supreme power is held by the people.

So, who is the people? The Filipinos. So, finally, Philippine democracy does NOT exist anymore. Because us Filipinos are against our government.

GOVERNMENT- It refers to the agency through which the will of the state is formulated, expressed and carried out.

The government are our representatives of the state. The will of the state now is to voice the intentions of the people. It turns out the government as turned against the will of the state defeating the purpose of democracy and governance.

Our last hope is to sue the state WITH it's consent.

Art. XVI, Sec.3. - The State may not be sued without its consent.

Art. II, Sec. 4. - The prime duty of the Government is to serve and protect the people. The Government may call upon the people to defend the State and, in the fulfillment thereof, all citizens may be required, under conditions provided by law, to render personal military or civil service.

Art. II Sec. 21. - The State shall promote comprehensive rural development and agrarian reform

Now, in this case, CARP or Comprehensive Agrarian Reform Program was expired last December. It was originally expired on June 2008 but was extended to December 2008. Recently, there were rallies by the farmers like the Sumulong Farmers to pass the CARPER (CARP with Extension and Reforms). The congressmen are too busy dealing with Cha-Cha instead of CARPER. They have to set their priorities correctly. http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/breakingnews/nation/view/20090610-209646/Bicam-approves-5-year-CARP-extension - Finally, CARPER is approved.

So meaning we had 5 months without CARP! CARP was originally planned in the Constitution. The "Shall" of that section was violated by that intentional hiatus of passing that bill.

Let me conclude that we are not yet ready to be a 2nd world country. We do not know how to take care of our state and our nation very well. Look at the alarming statistics if you want to know. We would end up like our Thai counterparts.

This is why I am NOT proud to be a Filipino Politically. I would even blame our countrymen and myself for such acts of tolerance. Thank You.

P.S. (06/11/09): No more blaming. Be positive. Do what you think can help the Philippines and its government to be a better state. Make a difference.

French-sponsored Eco-documentary: HOME

This is the trailer of a 1:33 eco-documentary directed by a French man named Yann Arthus-Bertrand in cooperation of PRR

This is the Website of HOME: http://www.home-2009.com/us/index.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Home_(documentary)

It is narrated by Glenn Close

The following Youtube link is the HD version of the documentary itself: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqxENMKaeCU&fmt=18

If you want to watch it with subtitles, just click the lowest right button and click "cc". I am RECOMMENDING you to watch this documentary, it is fantastic.

Personal Reaction:

This documentary has gave me insights on what would the world be like if we are to continue disregard the harmony of life in this unique unit of ecosystem. I will never give up nature just for the sake of non-sustainable economic development. "It's too late to be a pessimist". I am kinda shocked when I heard about the melting of the Siberian permafrost which will release Methane (CH3) which is 20 times stronger than CO2.

The global economy is now in a deep recession and we are still continue to develop technology for the sake of humanity not of nature. I will leave the rest of the message to the documentary. You will know why, we are in an urgent situation.

If I were to compare this to Al Gore's Inconvenient Truth, this docu has a better chance than IT. Why? IT is overloaded with Statistics while this is more on the effects, the processes and the unity and the symphony of natural co-existence. Let me add the impact of the effects of global warming on different landscapes of our HOME.

H1N1 in DLSU

Finally, I am quite near to this beast already. It is now at De La Salle University at Taft Avenue in Manila. 2 students are confirmed for this case.

It is highly likely, that Dengue fever and H1N1 will be our enemies this year. Since I am from Malate, There is like 30% probability of H1N1 coming to Malate.

Why am I not scared of this virus as I was before? Probably the alertness of this virus has been tamed down in international journalism. But I have the colds now and the monsoon is acting up so, I my resistance may be low when I come contact with H1N1 which I hope not.

The time of self-quarantine is near. Alcohol and face mask are insufficent defenses for our health so, always remember that the best way to prevent disease dispersion is frequent and effective handwashing (not to the point of OCD handwashing.)

HELLO? Utopia will never meet our standards unless the whole of humanity shall change into a more beneficial attitude towards life as a whole unit.

Name meanings

Fellows, Here are the meanings of my names.

Kyle- My aunt's Husband, Sir Mark Choi, named me after the character from the Terminator 1, Kyle Reese who tried to save Sarah Connor the father of John Connor, the Head of the resistance against Skynet.

Well, the meaning is

" It is of Gaelic origin, and its meaning is "narrow, straight". Place name that refers either to a narrow body of water between two land masses, or to a peninsula or isthmus."

Source: http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/1/Kyle

It is actual a unisexual name. It can be used for Males and Females alike.

Victor- I am named after my late paternal grandfather Lt. Gen. Victor Arizabal Mayo and my late guardian Victor Vanzi. My 1st cousin Joseph Victor Mayo Choi is named too after my grandfather. Therefore, I am the 3rd one in the known family to have a Victor in his name excluding my guardian.

"It is of Latin origin, and its meaning is "champion". A very popular saint's name common in Christian Rome, as was the female form Victoria."

Source: http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/1/Victor

Jose- Is my surname, which is also my mother's maiden name, before she was married to her husband, Ronald Renolla.


Counterfactual Thinking (CT):
1) If I were to be born within a married family, my name will then be, Kyle Victor J. Mayo
2) If I were to be born outside a married family, and should there also be a middle name or initial, my name will then be, Kyle Victor N. Jose

Now, according to my birth certificate, my 1st names are Kyle Victor and my surname is Jose.
Is there any way I can pursue the 2nd option of the CT?


Was there even a law being born without a middle initial in the Philippines? There are many unanswered questions. My father is offering me for a surname change through due process. From Jose to Mayo, to cover my identity with my Father's side. Is CT#1 still possible?


I think I better stick with this name instead because the change of name is the change of identity and it may be too confusing and too expensive. Let me think about this for a while.

Reflection of treatment on the individual with the relation of the future

"If you treat an individual as if he were what he ought to be and could be, he will become what he ought to be and could be." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

I believe in this reflection. The past creates a certain future that's intended to be. In counterfactual thinking, we people think about the "What If's" of this world and surprisingly, there are millions of alternative presents and futures of time. It always lies in the individual's personal responsibility and his/her attitude towards these situations.

Like, if you are a very strict parent not letting your children enjoy life as it should be and give him/her extreme punitive treatment even for the slightest attempt of disobedience. This person will have a very high chance of having a very introverted, anxious, fearful, egotistic personality suffering from trauma. S/He might not be able to socialize for this fear might be applied with other people.

This means that the past is the foundation of the present and the future. It is impossible to change the past (Only if you have an authentic time travel machine :) LOL) so, the only way for you to cope up with it, is to acknowledge and accept it as part of your life.

External force is social influence. Everyone can be influenced unless they are closed-minded, then they are immune to this influence.

I apologize for my unannounced short hiatus

Closed-minded People

There are alot of closed-minded people everywhere. I have a chatfriend from Scotland who claims Sonic is real, and she doesn't accept the fact that Sonic is fiction. I have a acquaintant who is sadomasochistic who has no desire to hear what other has to say.

Enlightenment vs. Resistance.

I have been resisting to see their point that they may say that I am close-minded from their perspective. The only way is to acknowledge and accept them for who they are. In one of the messages of the latter I described in the 1st paragraph, I felt quite disturbed and that made me think, that I was in fact in the very same perspective of those reader who read these posts when I write negative thoughts.

The more you change them, the more they are closed-minded. They do not accept any help or inspirations from others because they realize that they want to assert the fact that they are who they are and nothing will change them aside from themselves.

All this time, I have been more manipulative than helping, which is horrible. Even you try your best to enlighten these people, it will never work. This is the reason why these people have very few friends. I admit that I was sometimes close-minded, but not all the time.

I hate being problematic to other people, I am just concerned and empathetic to other people. When will they open their hearts and minds and realize what kind of person they are? I don't know. They lack self-reflection and careful introspection. So, let me say to those people who are dealing with close-minded people, ACCEPT THEM as part of the society. Even you don't like them like this, they will not change unless they allowed themselves to and powerfully defend themselves.

Alot of people do not acknowledge the other perspectives, because they think that their perspective is the most important which is inconsiderate and asymmetric. I do this alot and never realized it. Really!

This closed-mindedness develops ignorance. They are trying to deny the facts and truths. They are not skeptics.

Ignorance and Skepticism are different. Ignorance is illogical while, Skepticism is logical. They have this fantasy to stay in one ground for a very long time without external interventions. This makes them safe. If they are intervened by someone they will get hyperactively defensive with that person. They are defending their beliefs, their stature and their personality from undesired manipulators.

So, this is why they are closed-minded. Let them experience the realization of enlightenment themselves, only then, they will see the authentic happiness. In short. Let them be until they open up.

Superiority-Inferiority reflection

"While one person hesitates because he feels inferior, the other is busy making mistakes and becoming superior." --Henry C. Link

This is another reflection we must all be aware off. You must not feel inferior unless you allowed yourself to be inferior. Inferiority delays things thus actions are procrastinated. We wonder about ourselves when we feel inferior.

Inferiority = Egotism
Superiority = Altruism and Egotism

We are trying to find the faults of actions inside us, neglecting external forces and concerns which makes us apathetic. Apathy= a person who has no concern on the community.

Egotism becomes egocentrism. This egocentrism heightens public self-awareness into soaring heights in the same time our self-image and self-esteem decreases into the great depths of the ocean. And alot of people out there don't like egocentric people because they always talk about themselves. This makes interpersonal love conditional.

Alot of people are afraid to make mistakes. Like I said before, People are made perfectly but not made to be perfect. If we don't make mistakes and perfect almost all of the time, we wouldn't be able to discover the faults and improve well. If these people are afraid, then they have no means whatsoever to take any risks or opportunities. It will waste their time if they don't take risks. There are more inferior people than superior people. It is best to go out of your comfort zones.

So, that is why that that quote is true.

Revisitation to the Sucat Community

I came back to Sucat last Friday, the day after my recital. Recently, I had something like homesick. Not sure though. I have had colds and partially slight temperature alterations since the day after my arrival.

Last Sunday, there was a weekly feast with my cousins, my aunt, which is usual. I stayed up with them until 2:00 AM internet cafe. Geez! I slept at 4:00 AM. My cousins are moving soon so, they want to embrace the time till the end.

At around 11:00 PM of Sunday, I have realized that one of my right toenails broke with accidental partial avulsion. Maybe, I broke it a few hours before. Ay! It is quite sensitive.

Now, it is 4:24 PM, After I type here, I will be going home to cure my homesickness. LOL I will be returning right after my enrollment for the 1st semester of AY 2009-2010. The reason for my return is the event of commemoration in the memory of my paternal grandfather Gen. Mayo who passed away on May 31, 2008, 2 days after the 2nd death anniversary of my guardian whom I call Uncle Vic.

Life goes on as it should happen, the time of mourning should not be interferred in the time of action.

THANK YOU AGAIN!

Soviet remnants

The greatest remnants of the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics (USSR) still possess that Soviet spirit in their national anthems.
























And finally the National Anthem of the SOVIET UNION itself.



Take note that the Soviet Union Anthem is also the Russian Federation National Anthem today.

The unity of Leninism and Stalinism was destroyed at 1991 and replaced by CIS (Commonwealth of Independent States. Death to Soviet Communism and vengeance for Global Capitalism. May dictatorship of those days not return.

A selected reflection of life.

"When people say to me: 'How do you do so many things?' I often answer them, without meaning to be cruel: 'How do you do so little?' It seems to me that people have vast potential. Most people can do extraordinary things if they have the confidence to take the risks. Yet most people don’t. They sit in front of the telly and treat life as if it goes on forever." --Phillip Adams

This is a very true quote. In short, TAKE THE RISK!!! Because you will never know what happens beyond if you do not take the risk. "Curiosity kills" unless you take the responsibility of that curiosity.

"Come to the edge
We might fall
Come to the edge
It's too high
COME TO THE EDGE!!!
So they came
And he pushed
And they flew." - Christopher Logue

Do reflect on this and you will understand the significance of positive internal motivation.

2 confirmed cases of H1N1 in the Philippines

This torturous epidemic is still growing to amazing heights. It is now in the Philippines.

We shall hope that this epidemic will not soar to something deadly. As I said in the previous post, this virus will re-mutate soon. The mutated form can never go back to the very same pre-mutated form again due to genetic complexities.

Surely the DOH (Department of Health) are doing everything to calm things down. The world will not lose against this epidemic and that is the ultimate assurance of affirmation.

Unfinished life and Finished Life

If I die today or very soon in my young life, I would like to let everyone know in my life that I was once a part of their life meaningfully. I would choose to be cremated and be contained in a urn. Death is very inevitable and time will never return. Once passed, never to be seen again naturally, Unless there is an artificial temporal intervention or manipulation.

I don't want to die for a mistake (like Rizal) but to die for a cause (like the martyrs of this world). I can sacrifice my life for my loved ones (if I have the courage to do so).

I want to experience all what I can experience in this lifetime without the illness of fear torturing me. I still fear death that I have no idea what the world be like.

I will not die for nothing but something massively significant. Anything can happen, we just have to anticipate the unpredictable circumstances.

When I die with a complete life, let my friends remember me for who will I bee in the future. My supposed future family will always believe and trust for what kind of man I will be.

After all, for every event there is a beginning and a end. After the end of that event comes a new beginning which is the beginning of a new event. So, there is this series of events that are chronologically infinite.

I will spend my last days confessing my faults to those people I painfully offended. Be open to new things that re-incarnation is a possibility.

Being a respected and a dignified person is what I want to be, not the future alternative self of gangstership. Let simplicity rule over complexity. Whether or not, all people are destined to die at the end.

Take note that I will never commit myself to the morbidity of suicidal grotesqueness, nor homicidal insanity. I am typing these things because I want the world to know that death is not a choice but an obligation to submit yourself to the supreme being.
THANK YOU.

Meditation: An authentic path to spiritual enlightenment

Meditation
by: Kyle Victor Jose

Auuuuummmm!
A pathway to spiritual enlightenment.
Let the soul take our breath away
The middle course of relaxation

The aura of chakra-awakening
The grand symbolism of transcendence
Does open a new realm
A realm of wondering discoveries
Hare Rama rules!

A drift to restful alertness
Awaits focus of intrinsic energy
And the brightness of vitality
Lifting up the toxins of death
Restoring the purity of the lotus flower
Om Mani Padme Om.

Nature takes a course of action
Not the artificiality of technology
Nor the skepticism of mysticism
We glow like rainbows
And grow like stars.

Pranas from the chakras
Flows like a river
Through the nadis.
It is coated with agape
an unconditional love.

In the illumination of consciousness
We float like clouds of awareness
And rain negative energies
To the core of the Earth
Via the grounding cord

Gurus of the old
Believe the power of silence
The deafening silence
The rhythmic silence of breathing

The colorful vortices
Shoot up with elegance
Bigger than hatred
And mightier than anger.

Let tranquility shine amidst the darkness
And spirits embrace the sword of immortality
Mortals like Gautama seek moderation
Vedas are guides to nirvana

Meditation of life!
An authentic path to spiritual enlightenment
Seekers of transcedent re-incarnations
Quintessence of morality
The road never forgotten
Explodes with dignity and respect
THE ULTIMATE PARADISE OF THE UNIVERSE!

This is a poem dedicated to the art of meditation. As suggested by my dad. Go with the beauty of it and experience this universal phenomenon. It is truly unstoppable.