Friendship: A personal pespective with quotes

"If a person does not make new acquaintances, as he advances through life, he will soon find himself left alone. A person should keep his friendship in constant repair."

In a way, This is me, because I have already found myself alone.

For a very long time, I have been looking for ways to socialize and to search for a good and true friend.

"A true friend remains a friend up to his pocket"

"Life is death without real friends and money can't buy them."

"Real friends do not tarnish, fade or depreciate."

These quotes is what the strength of friendship really is and I never did experience such. I observe people who had experience it and it turns out that reality always blooms in their perspective. How can I see the mere reality without experiencing the essence and the genuinity of the relationship? Is it just me? Or is it everyone out there?

I have discovered myself that I am empathetic in some ways. There are people who keep on saying that "You need to open up".

Many times, my perspective have been shifting as if it is a light switch. There are times that I decided that I have many friends. There also times that I decided that I am lonely. I strictly consider those many "Friends" as "Insignificant acquaintances".

I may be dull, I may be unorganized, and I may be misunderstood. There are instances I have to change for the sake of adjustment.

It has been like this all my life. In what way am I a friend to someone for those who know me personally and via internet??????

Do I not show compassion, loyalty, faith, love, hope, enthusiasm of pressence? Is there a certain criterion in creating a friendship with another person?

I am blinded with illusions.

I have no one to express or to talk my feelings with, because I fear that they may have bias comments.

Friends are bonded with a certain commonality. Once broken, it will NEVER be the same when it returns.

I honestly can't be an effective leader because I don't feel close to a clique. Hi's and good byes are simply the words I do see.

two problems I realize in myself are SHYNESS and LACK OF SOCIALIZING SKILLS. This must be 2 of the factors why I don't gain friends at all.

So, It must be me after all. I must be assertive to gain this contigency. It is difficult to look in to your subconscious.

I hope you understand