Self-realization analysis 1

I must admit that I may be a better psychologist than a nurse. I finally realized that ANXIETY has been hunting me which hinders me from everyday work. If I am abnormally anxious, then I am considered immature. This is considered as a result of my traumatic experiences as a child. Abnormal anxiety is a psychological disorder which may be helped through therapy.

Back in elementary, Some of my teachers, guidance counselors and my guardians saw that I had some psychological problem like ADHD or so, so I was referred to a psychiatrist in Cardinal Santos Hospital and all of the tests on me confirmed that there was nothing wrong with me. After a couple of years, I dwelled into a psychological disorder which is buried in the core of my personality, which I see it as ANXIETY. I know this is true, because I am feared in alot of situations. Mr. Choi asked me to read a book by Morgan Scott Peck which is Road Less Traveled

I may have to change course, and leave the clinical dogma behind. I thought nursing has a call for me to serve the sick and in reality, I have been facing complicated barriers involving a million technical ways on how I should face these tasks, theoretically and practically. Every test and every task involving extensive utilization of grades is the ultimate anxiety for failure in school. This is the reason why I sometimes have low grades.

The reason why I said something about the CI's below is self-defense against anxiety.
The reason why I am afraid to socialize and to ask questions are unpredictable effects which is anxiety

I therefore conclude that uncontrollable anxiety exists in my very soul, this is why I am very different from everyone.

So, I am sure there is a treatment which is a certain therapy. However, God is the disorder, the disease, the cure and the result, so we can't blame him. Only ourselves should be blamed.

I hope I can cope it up for 2009.