Last visit to my cousin's and Dad

Few weeks ago, I had a dream about me visiting my cousins. Once I entered their house I saw the parents (My aunt and her husband) of my cousins getting mad at me or something and called my dad to get me to my dad's house because they said that they are going somewhere soon.

NOW, during my Christmas break with my cousins and my Dad's family, I semi-enjoyed it and semi-busted it. I arrived at their village on December 22, 2008. I stayed at my Cousin's House from that day to December 25, 2008 and at my dad's house from the night of December 25 to today (Decemeber 28, 2008). The initial planned departure from my cousins and my dad's village was supposed to be December 29, 2008 but it didn't happened due to various reasons.

December 22, 2008- After leaving my house in Manila at 2:15PM, I walked approximately 2.5 kilometers south of the flagstand in Roxas Boulevard. I stopped at the Km. 4 mark located few meters north of HK Sun Plaza (Across the Department of Foreign Affairs (DFA)). It took me around an hour and 45 minutes (1.75 hours) to walk to that Km. 4 mark. So my average speed would be: 1.4286 Km./Hr. Consider the amount of baggage I had to carry (1 bag of cheeze, 1 messenger bag and 1 sports bag) It was then I got an FX to BF McDonalds (a Km or 2 west of Sucat Interchange). That was all my travels on that day.

December 24- Noche Buena (Christmas Eve Feasting) and Misa de Gallo (Christmas eve mass). My dad told me that an initiation in a Buddhist temple is far more powerful than a Catholic Holy Mass. Only through meditation you can achieve transcedental state of deep consciousness.

Christmas day- Usual Family tradition of Christmas Partying at Cubao. (I never realized that I have very distant relatives from Australia and California) That was the day when I discovered such.

December 26- In the household, I was talking to the father of the household of my cousins about my problems in life and he told me to take the tests (Which I said about it in my Christmas Day Controversial post (Blogger's time)). Then he lectured me further about God and illusion which astounded me about the analogies of theistic existentialism. Then, The decision that affected me most, happened to be a failure of my plan in making a video of a speech for school. The decision is made by the family heads telling me to go home right away on that day and take more tests and search for something that will help me understand myself more in an instantaneous manner. This happened in the afternoon. After that decision was made, I made the CONTROVERSIAL POST in which one of my cousins commented on. Honestly, I made that post negatively and emotionally.

I was emotional because I knew that they are the only people I know who have a video camera for my speech. I still have hopes in finding one soon before January 5, 2009.

On the night of that day, I got everything and brought it to my dad's house which I would call it as the "Portal of exile" for 1 1/2 days. I knew I was exiled. I understand and I admit that I am not one of them. They never wanted me know the reason.

So, I didn't tell my dad that night but on the next day, I did. THE LECTURES HAD CHANGED ME for the benefits of the future.

December 27- I spent my day in My dad's house and in the internet cafe. I made the post about ANXIETY in the internet cafe. I like being with my half-bro because he is fun to be with. My dad, he taught me how to do the basic meditation (Following the breath). I was still troubled due to that situation.

December 28- I had my half-day there in the village and I heard the news that they were going somewhere, somewhere aquatically Epicurean. By 2:15PM, they left for that spot. By 2:30PM I went home as my dad's family went to SM city Sucat.

So, It really turned out that my dream I envisioned few weeks ago is a stereotype and a shorter outline of events that happened on December 26 to 28, 2008.

I hope you understand me well. I may not who you expect me to be, but I see myself as a life on uncertainty type.

From research, I may not only be developing the Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) but PARANOIA. Alot of things may not fit perfectly at my time. Too much problems.

NOTE: I am not saying any names in this post to protect the privacy and the reputation of the referred people.